A new beginning

Hello everyone! :)
This is my first time blogging and I have to say I think I will grow to like it. First off the reason being for why I made this is for a "private" journal. I have myspace and I also have a facebook the thing is I have friends that are family that get on my nerves quite a bit so I made this because my family, not immediate, is to stupid to figure out the whole blogging thing. So now I can come on here and bitch about my family and then they won't know YAY!!!
Well it well be three weeks exactly since my grandma has passed away and still not sure how I feel about everything I still cry when I think about it so won't talk to much. The thing that really chaps my cackies is that my family while my grandma was still alive said I don't want anything. But as soon as she passed they have been going crazy wanted everything. My aunt especially is making me mad because she thinks that she has bought all this stuff for grandma, which she hasn't, but she thinks that she should get everything. Wrong... I was the one who spent nights after nights up at all hours taking care of her for 9 months after she had her stroke I spent every waking minute for a month and a half in the hospital while she was there and went to every therapy session she had. I hate that she thinks that she is entitled to everything no one was ever there and I was used like a bitch for everyone. If I were to have kept all of the excuses I heard from everyone I could have wrote a book that titled 1 million excuses. But now that my grandma has passed after becoming so close to her it is hard to go on with life, I have a feeling of that there is no purpose for me anymore. I had no life, I had to cut off all contact with my friends and my relationship with my husband went down the drain as well came close to getting a divorce so many time it wasn't even funny. But somehow we stuck through it and it made us stronger.
We are now trying for a baby!!! Yay as well as the dumbass cousin of mine who can't even afford the one she has now. But she just wants to feel like she is a part of the family. Now she is a piece of work let me tell ya. She doesn't even watch her own kid hardly her mother does she doesn't have a job or anything... she would just rather go and pop pills and fall down the stairs with her own daughter... one word, DUMBASS!!! Oh well I must go and let my dogs out and get ready to go to sleep. Until next time hope everyone has a good life.