Cleaning is finished!... for now.

So ya all of the top of the house is clean our living space is clean yay finally!!! I'm way excited to be able to say that everything in the upstairs has been gone through and we are finally clutter free!! So now I hopefully will be able to write more about other things. Finally put in my first scentsy order and had the open house party just a couple of days ago brought in about a 200 dollar order. I don't think that's to bad for being my first order my goal is to try and do something to help my business grow everyday. So far not so great, really have to work on applying myself. So yay tomorrow is my two year anniversary. I'm way excited even though we have no money to do anything we are going to try and just spend most of the time after adam gets off of work together. Great times then in a few weeks I will be off to California yay!!! I'm way excited for that too. Yosemite is going to be great! But I must get going dinner is waiting and I need to cook so I will update everyone later probably won't be on tomorrow anniversary and all but will try and be on the day after. Have fun and smile!

Yello!!!

Hello everyone its like 2:30 in the morning and I'm wide awake on my husbands computer and he has a small keyboard so if there are mispelled words I'm sorry its just very hard to type. So pretty much everyone is done coming to the house finally I think there are like two more "rooms" if you want to call them that, to go through. I am actually wanting to get a party going for Scentsy which is a little business I'm doing. Its a wickless candle type of a thing they smell great and are much safer then a candle. If anyone is interested leave me a comment and I will get in touch with you promise. So house is some what clean after going through all of this "stuff" of my grama's. Now I can start moving and rearranging things to put my stuff in to make it feel like my own. So pretty cool well I just wanted to let ya catch up with my life. I'm headed to bed I will write letter don't forget to let me know if you would like to come to a Scentsy party.
Have a great day.

Not yet done...

So I thought I would write since its been a few days. I have been crazy busy trying to get all of the upstairs clean. I feel like I have been running around like a chicken with it's head cut off. There is just so much to do and so little time to do it in. But I think I have finally gotten down into the last little bit of the cleaning yay! Long time coming but its finally done. I'm way tired though. When you stay up half the night cleaning then get up early just to start the whole cleaning process over again it really wears a person out. But so far things with the family have still been bleh just horrible I won't go into horrible details, but we invited my aunt the B***h over and she cleaned out two closets and didn't hardly take anything. Crazy stuff she is so stupid sometimes. She actually missed like three big totes that when we went through them they were full of old pictures. Well ya snooze you loose haha. So ya its been pretty great making her look like an idiot. I think they thought they were going to find buried treasure or something my whole family thinks that she just had millions stashed away every where. Trust me if anyone was going to find the money it would have been me. I am the one who has been doing all the cleaning by myself. Cleaning ughhh I really should finish it will be a lot better for me when I'm done. Oh and I am still waiting to go to California in a month... way to long to wait I'm thinking of sneaking out and going now no one would notice I'm gone lol. Well I will try and write later when I'm finished cleaning... oh and ladies find a guy that isn't a slob. My cousin we live with never cleaned and when are started cleaning I literally got sick it was just so disgusting what I found no details. But its just gross!!!!
Well smile and have a great day love y'all!

Cleaning and ready to switch places

Yay!!! I'm so excited for tomorrow probably won't have time to write tomorrow about life so I will tell you whats going on. Today right now my husband and I are cleaning up our basement we have lived in for two years and are now moving upstairs yay no more dark dirty dungeon basement. We are just cleaning carpets and its kinda gross got a puppy and now it kinda smells
ya know. While letting the carpets dry we are trying to pack and get clothes and things together to move tomorrow. I sure hope that we can get everything done in one day. Oh but I'm way happy to be upstairs where there is light and more room. yay!!!!!! Ok so I'm also way excited for California too. It just looks like everything is looking up for us. Things are still hard i look around and see grama in everything that is in this house but it gets easier as time goes on. Well better get back to cleaning and have to find something to eat.
Have a great time till we meet again and smile!! :)

Yay for California!!

Alright dates are set, my mom and I are leaving on September 3rd and will come home on the 8th. Sweet I'm way excited. I'm more the read to go. I have needed to get away for quite awhile now and it's happening. Sweet!!!! The day after we fly in we get to go to Yosemite! If you haven't been you should totally make it a life's mission to go. It is one of the most beautiful places you will ever go. You can see the upper and lower falls and the half dome oh it's just gorgeous. If you can't tell I'm so excited!!!!!! The only thing that could have made it better is if my husband could come... but unfortunately he has to work they are way behind in orders... but atleast we know he won't loose his job. Unless some odd thing happens. Things are going a lot better today with everything now I know that everything is going to be ok. I am planning on going down to the cemetary today and see grama. Its been hard but I feel like its going ok for today anyway. Well gonna make plans with the husband for date night as well as I really need to go and get some birthday presents for my mother and brother, their birthdays are this weekend.
Have fun everyone and smile!!!! :)

Exciting News

Well some exciting news in a so so day in Whitney's lil world.
It is now been finalized my mother and I are booking our trip this afternoon to go to california for a lil while. I am way excited about it I can't wait. I am hoping it will help with coping with all of the emotions that I have been dealing with lately. We shall see I will keep you updated on when we will be leaving and coming back as well as the rest of my life... YAY FOR CALIFORNIA!!!!!!
I'm so ecstatic!!! I can't wait to go yay me!!
Have fun and smile!!

Working things out...so so day

hey its another screwed up day in the life of whitney...
I am sitting her without meaning or purpose to life. My husband hates me because I'm "not spending time with him", and I'm selfish and rude. I guess I'm really the only one who understands where I'm coming from. I just lost the person that I was closest with after putting my life on hold for her for 9 months and now she is gone and I think he just thinks that I can snap right out of loosing them. But of course it doesn't work like that. Everyone thinks that if you have been there and slowly are watching someone die over a period of time you would think that it would be easier to cope with the death... WRONG!!! For me it is like 100x harder for me to cope with my grama being gone. I was the one she depended on all of the time I wanted time to spend with others but at the same time I didn't trust anyone to take care of her. No one knew what they were doing and so why try and go out when I was going to get 100 calls asking me how to do things. I guess you could kind of compare it to loosing a baby though I have never experienced it I feel to me the best comparison. That little thing depends on you for everything and you grow close and bond and there are rough times but you make it through adapt and figure things out. As well when you have a baby you feel a sense of purpose to your life how I did while taking care of grama. I was the only one that could help her no one else was there to help. Its really a lot like being a single parent with a newborn... once again never experienced it just the closest thing I could think of to compare it to. But if your baby dies don't you feel lost and forgotten and just a whole bunch of feelings all wrapped up into one. I feel like I'm nothing right now. My only reason for going on was my husband and my grama... My grama is now passed so my baby that has depended on me for everything is now gone and I don't know where to go from here... and my husband hates me because I can't go and do anything I don't even want to try what is the point. I need to find a new purpose in life. Where some one needs me to help... Hopefully things will start to work themselves out. or I'm afraid for the worst. Well sorry for being a bummer just needed to get things off my chest. Love everyone and have a good day.

A new beginning

Hello everyone! :)
This is my first time blogging and I have to say I think I will grow to like it. First off the reason being for why I made this is for a "private" journal. I have myspace and I also have a facebook the thing is I have friends that are family that get on my nerves quite a bit so I made this because my family, not immediate, is to stupid to figure out the whole blogging thing. So now I can come on here and bitch about my family and then they won't know YAY!!!
Well it well be three weeks exactly since my grandma has passed away and still not sure how I feel about everything I still cry when I think about it so won't talk to much. The thing that really chaps my cackies is that my family while my grandma was still alive said I don't want anything. But as soon as she passed they have been going crazy wanted everything. My aunt especially is making me mad because she thinks that she has bought all this stuff for grandma, which she hasn't, but she thinks that she should get everything. Wrong... I was the one who spent nights after nights up at all hours taking care of her for 9 months after she had her stroke I spent every waking minute for a month and a half in the hospital while she was there and went to every therapy session she had. I hate that she thinks that she is entitled to everything no one was ever there and I was used like a bitch for everyone. If I were to have kept all of the excuses I heard from everyone I could have wrote a book that titled 1 million excuses. But now that my grandma has passed after becoming so close to her it is hard to go on with life, I have a feeling of that there is no purpose for me anymore. I had no life, I had to cut off all contact with my friends and my relationship with my husband went down the drain as well came close to getting a divorce so many time it wasn't even funny. But somehow we stuck through it and it made us stronger.
We are now trying for a baby!!! Yay as well as the dumbass cousin of mine who can't even afford the one she has now. But she just wants to feel like she is a part of the family. Now she is a piece of work let me tell ya. She doesn't even watch her own kid hardly her mother does she doesn't have a job or anything... she would just rather go and pop pills and fall down the stairs with her own daughter... one word, DUMBASS!!! Oh well I must go and let my dogs out and get ready to go to sleep. Until next time hope everyone has a good life.